Love this part of the year when the festive season doesnt seem to end .. one after another all the festivals r just so lined up .. hate those initial months of the year when we wait for something but none does .. this is the part of the year we love and we expect this part to continue .. But this time something strange has hit me .. I seem not to be happy .. Going through a very diffcult phase .. dont know what has suddenly stuck me !! I seem to be unhappy with everything around me .. on the contrary I should be happy about everything .. It's a strange feeling altogether when I am getting rude to everyone .. Every person is driving me nuts and I tend to react to everyone .. There was actually a time which I often boast of is that I don't fight with anyone .. i didn't indulge in the slightest of tiffs ever .. no matter how big a reason that was .. But nowadays things are just so different. Feel so guilty .. helpless with the fact that I loose everything so easily and so often and I am loosing trust of all the people in the world whose trust I treasure .. Giving out all wrong signals to people ..
I tried counting reasons for the same .. and ended up with none .. Didn't find any suitable reason for why am I behaving so odd these days. What is it thats majorly going wrong within me. On second thoughts found hundred reasons for being this way .. A fight of sorts within me .. hard to describe, hard to put into words .. Hundreds of emotions rushing and the outcome is a strange feeling which is taking a toll on every relation I hold in this earth. Even the festivities going around fail to sooth me .. All the happy faces around me fail to make any impact and I tend not to love anything that is around me. Probably Waiting for a miracle to happen and I might find out my lost self .. the one who was actually me and not this person whom I fail to recognise sometimes in the mirror ..
